Do you ever miss me?
If you do you hardly ever say so.
Sometimes you leave me wondering if you’re perfectly content when I’m not with you or when we’re not speaking. I don’t mean that to feel like a slight of some sort. It’s just that sometimes I wonder what’s the point in me adoring you if you’re not interested in me in the same way I’m interested in you. If you don’t need me or think of me as I do you.
Even so at the same time I believe that you do miss me. But for some reason you just don’t feel the need to let me know how you feel. Their such a disparity between the way we treat each other. And much of that is because of the difference in how we express how we feel. I miss you constantly and so I tell you I love you and I miss you constantly. At least that’s how it is for me.
You seldom tell me that you miss me or that you love me at least that’s how it feels to me. So the way I interpret that is expressed in the way I behave towards you. I miss you and I love you and so I say I miss you and I love you. You don’t say I miss you or that I love you and so what does that mean? To me it leaves me wondering does she miss me or does she still love me?
And I don’t question whether not you love me I just question whether not you care to be near me or to connect with me somehow. You love me but do you need me? Because it feels like you are just as content to simply know that I love you and move on in your life. At least that’s what it feels like sometimes.
but then I think about the times where you have thank me for loving you even though it’s difficult for you to express the same to me, even though you do feel the same. And you’ve told me that you express yourself more to me than you ever have to anyone. And I take those works hard and I believe them. And I don’t only believe them but I cling to them and hope and believe that their true.
please don’t hate me for saying this, but in all of your relationships all of the men who love you and up wondering if you love them back. I’m lucky because I know that you love me. But there have been many times I’ve been on the verge of giving up ready to walk away thinking that you didn’t care for me and then just in the nick of time he will tell me something extraordinary like I have never loved another man like I love you!!!
I’m sorry that it feels so much like work for you to simply be able to say I love you very much and I miss you. But I know that somehow you see that as what you call “maintenance.” I’m grateful that you take the time every now and then to maintenance on me 😃 sometimes just in the nick of time before I give up on you and I.
In reality I’ve given up several times and told myself I’m moving on and that your gone. Then you call and talk and you love me just as much and it clear that you love me! It’s clear that nothing’s changed for you as far as how you feel about me… It blows my mind and I’m happy.