Many of you know that this site is dedicated to a woman I love very much. Last year she was assaulted and almost killed. I spent the last year helping with his case and helping Catnip recover.
He pleaded guilty to 2 felonies and if you would like to see him or read the statements from 2 of his accusers you can do it here.
She and I continue to be very close. She loved me very much as I do her and we see each other every day now. She is recovering and doing well.
Dear Sweet Peaches.
This is me trying to leave you along when I want to be texting you or talking to you. This is me showing you I love you. I know your with family and I don’t know how intrusive a text would be so I’m not texting you.
There’s something very fundamental about my need for you. Even now as your out with your loved ones and I with mine, I long to hear your voice or read some expressions of your love for me, nothing is sweeter to me. There is nothing I seek or desire more acutely than those simple thing and nothing else that brings me such joy.
I would never hurt you or see you hurt and yet you do hurt for me. That happens more than you tell me, I’m certain. For that I’m both sorry and grateful. It’s such a powerful statement of your love for me. And it’s a statement that you don’t often share. I don’t understand why you don’t share it with me. I wonder a lot about why you don’t express those feelings more but I am so glad that I now understand them a little better and I do see that you love me I do see you express your love to me.
Maybe I am stupid for not seeing it for so long. But I know now that you love me. I know it in my heart and in the depths of my soul. My emotions some times torture me with doubt and I have to stop and let my brain tell my heart that you love me. I think that happens sometimes because you guard your emotions so closely and you don’t allow your emotions to show through to me. You do share them, It has happened on a few very precious occasions and they mean a lot to me. We are different. I share my feeling openly with you I’m sure more than you like. But I also know that your tender soul needs that kind of love however difficult it is to sometimes endure.
Having someone as beautiful and intriguing as you, love me, is a completely new thing to me. It may seem to you that admirers walk through the door all day long. But that’s never been the case for me. Especially with someone as complex and fascinating and beautiful and honest as you.
I love and adore you and can’t wait to got to sleep so that I can wake up and text you in the morning knowing that you will read it and that for that moment we are connected.
I love you and I will love you forever and look forward to you and I drawing even closer.