You asked me such a simple question and the answer is both complex and simple. I love you as I have never loved another woman before. That is the short answer.
Part of the answer will make you angry. Part of it is because you bear worrying about! Not only because you live life, but because you sometimes make mistakes and sometimes when you do those who should support you do a poor job of it. Your the most amazing woman I know and that’s so even though for the most part you have to take care of everything you to and everything you encounter all by yourself. Sometimes you need help or love or understand from someone who loves you and I can be that. Another easy way to say that is that I wish you were mine!
I wish you had continue to let yourself fall in love with me and that we would have ended up together, married raising a family together. But that’s not what happened. I don’t know that I would say that you have chosen another man yet, I’m not sure that’s what has happened because you continue to see me and want to see me, for which I am grateful. But you did not choose me. But I still love you and for now and for the future as long as you allow me to be part of your life I will express my love for you in words and deeds.
I want everything I have ever told you that I want from you. But if I don’t get that, then I still love you and as long as I am allowed I will care for you and be kind to you within those confines.
The long answer is long because it is so complex. You are such a wounded little kitten at times that it wounds me to my very core. Such a tender and beautiful woman, so full of life and so amazing, and yet you are this wonderful woman having gone through so much turmoil. How amazing would you be if you have been treated as a woman should be treated bye the men in your life who you give so fully to and who demand so much of you in return.
There is a part of me that simply hopes that you one day see the value in you that I see and that you demand that the men in your life treat you as I treat you without qualification or demand. I do love you and I will prove it by teaching you how to love and be loved and I will have to be satisfied that that is enough. It will kill me in a million little ways, but I don’t love you because you give to me or because you share with me. I do love those things but my love for you means more than that.
I have loved very few women. I know that doesn’t mean a lot to someone who have been so loved and pursued by so many. But it means something to me. I love you so I worry and care about you.
So for now I will stop writing before I sound even more pathetic. I love you that’s why,.