Dear Little Girl
That was a long weekend preceded by a long week. Not seeing you or being in a place where I can’t talk to you really sucks ass.
Talking to you today was so interesting. You do hold your cards close, and we are so different in so many ways, and were in different places as well.
I sometimes get in trouble with you for not knowing things that I couldn’t possible know and then get a bit of an ass chewing from you for it. I went through some training once where they taught us not to put up with the pain or ignore the pain, but to embrace the pain. To love the pain, because as long as we had it we were alive and we could adapt or address it. That’s me with you sometimes. How could I have know that the boy you like was in town, and I didn’t know he was living with you when he was in town either, if he is.
You getting gruff with me about not knowing that he was in town and that is why you couldn’t see me for lunch, AWESOME! Glad to know the boy you like is in town, that way I will make sure not to embarrass you or hurt you in some way.
Its a really messed up feeling I’m going through at this moment as I write you because I am both glad and jealous. He will get to see you and I don’t, but you care enough about me to protect that. That’s awesome and it sucks bother. I’m sure you get it.
I sometimes wonder what you go through because of me and our relationship. I say were in different places because I am comfortable speaking to you and arranging things so that we don’t hurt each other. I know you are two, but in some ways it still bothers you, and I’m over or past that, and don’t want to hurt you. Just tell me and I will be careful and respectful of your needs.
I look forward to lunch with you Wednesday and hope to talk to you between now and then a few times. For now I on my way out to find a red studded collar for you! :-)
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