When I asked if “the Asshole” still trys to get in touch with you you asked me when If I could let you go. Centering me on the idea that I will never let you go so that I would infer that he will never let you go. I got it.
I don’t necessarly like being compared to “The Asshole” but I understood what you implied, and I know your NOT comparing us. But there is a big difference betwen him and I. He may love you, but he continues to try to contact you not because he loves you but because he loves himself MORE than you. This is about winning and losing to him, and if he ever gets you back he will make sure you understand that he is the winner. Now maybe I am the asshole for saying that. But to him you are about winning and control.
Remember the story I told about a bunch of newly married people sitting around talking about what they would do if they got a divorse and I didnt want to be part of that conversation? They pressed me into it and I said I wouldnt get a divorse. I would sell everything I had or that I could get my hands on, take my kids and leave and tell no one. I would keep the kids and to hell with everything else and never look back.
The difference between he and I is that I could not bear to see you that unhappy and he doesnt give a shit if your happy unless your with him. He would rather destroy your happiness than see you happy without him and I think thats true in a very dangerous way.
If you told me to leave you the fuck alone I would leave. I would not stick around to fuck with you or mess with your life. But I could not bear to see you or run into you either. I would erase everything here in my life, take whatever I could quickly take, accept one of the jobs in Europe that would sustain me, and I would leave.
Remember the nice guy? You said he never calls or trys to get ahold of you. I don’t know him or what your relationship was with him at all. But I would be much more like him than “the Asshole” If I saw you or ran into you I would nice or if you called or whatever I would be nice. I couldn’t be anything else. But It would rip me open inside each time and I would suffer through the polite smiles and the goodbye hug I’m sure you give me. I know couldn’t survive that again, so I would leave.
“The Asshole” loves himself.
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