“They” will never allow us to be friends, or anything else. Your parents, friends, co-workers, ex-lovers, even the casual glances of strangers will deny us that. Not because of anything we do, but because you are a younger woman, and I am an older man.
I’m sorry you didn’t know that. But we will always be judged, frequently by people who are far less happy than we are. They will see us and judge us, knowing nothing about us, and they will judge themselves as somehow morally superior in the process…
I don’t care what they think and I never have, because I know that most of them are living lives of tepid endurance. So scared to be honest for fear of losing what happiness they cling to, that they lie even to themselves. They lie to themselves and hope that happiness will somehow find them as they hang clinging to the side of the empty life raft that they call a life.
That’s where I was when I finally realized that I would rather be dead, than go on living the same old tired lies.
I am at my core a kind man. I will always protect you and your reputation. I will always be cautious about your reputation and I will always act with propriety especially in public. But you need to know that “They” will never allow “Us”, and you need to acknowledge that within your heart. Because if you don’t, you will be hurt again and again.
But you should also know that for me, about me, I will not lie or pretend that I am something I am not just to make other people feel secure in their tiny lives.