Today I left a message for Catnip on her work phone and simply asked her to call me. She didnt call.
I tried to text her and I am still blocked from texting.
I called her cell phone, I was no longer blocked from phone calls, but I didnt leave a message. I knew she would see the missed call and call if she wanted.
Later in the day while I was logged on Gmail I saw her and IMed her.
Me: U ok?
Catnip: Yes, I am ok…
Me: Im sorry
Catnip: I know
Me: will we be ok?
Me: Can I see you later in the week?
–Here there was a Long pause—
Catnip: I’ll think about it.
Me: I need to if you can, I will leave you alone.
Please call if you can sometime
Sent 3:39 PM
Catnip: Well, I am sorry that I am no just saying yes.
But I am working through stuff.
Me: Just me, or life too
Catnip: Both, and I am really struggling with
How upset I am with you…
I don’t want you to work through it and not know
Where you end up with it all.
I love you for you. You mean a lot to me.
Me: I’m sorry I made you cry at work
Me: I would appreciate it if you told me exactly how you felt
It would help me a lot.
Me: I’m scared
Catnip: OK. When I have time, I will get back to you.
Me: Im dying inside little girl. Do you know how rare
You are to me? I hope you don’t have to wait to
Long to call me. I have thought of nothing since.
Love to hear anything anyone things.