This is the letter I hand wrote and gave her. I still don know what she things of the letter.
Dear Ms Anneliese,
I’m honest and forthright with you. I don’t understand you, or us completely, but I do love you and I know that there is an US. I know that you’re looking for the right man, and that it’s not me. I’m missing some of the fundamental things you need, but I certainly have many of the things that you want and you can have them for a very long time. I will always be there for you as long as you have to courage to have me and the courage to embrace what you now only play with. And I am asking you for more.
I know you are direct enough to take it straight so I will be straight. You care about me and you are attracted to me. You like teasing me and you like flirting with me and you like my attention. And I want more of this.
I know about some of the men you’ve had in your life and I know how hard you try to please them, how you care for them. And I know the way they treat you, shitting on you, leaving you hollow inside or, or needing, or alone. Well fuck all of them, and who they turned out to be.
You know who I am and what I am and I want to be there for you and I want you to embrace me, to embrace us. Maybe that’s a challenge, since I lack so many of the things so fundamental to a relationship with you. But as unconventional as our relationship is, it is real and rare and you know that it will be enduring.
I think that scares you. That I am real The you love me and you shouldn’t and I shouldn’t. You love me and its real why would anyone ever want to let that go, or that behind? So Please don’t. So embrace it, no matter what you have to do to keep it and I will do the same.
We I have a foundation that most relationships lack, and that I think you are cautious of. Its either that or you don’t care for me, as I think you do which is to hard to imagine.
I don’t want to hurt you, or piss you off but I think your scared of embracing what we have together. You enjoy the small moments with me, the tenderness that you rarely allow yourself, because you have been hurt before and because of who we are. And I think because you either want to be able to say goodbye, or so that you wont have to say goodbye. But I don’t want you to give up on love or give up on us, ever.
You want those tendernesses but you protect yourself from them to. You isolate portions of yourself from me to protect yourself and to control things. It seems to me that what you crave is what you deny yourself, a softness that balances out that voracious, sexy animal in you that you want to set free with me but don’t. That’s what I think I see. Fuck all the stupid shit, put it aside and trust me and tell me that you want to fuck me and be my lover.
I’m going to try to make a case for you fucking me, for being my mistress, my dirty little secret, my hot little piece of ass, my lover. Let’s have hot, intense, sweaty, amazing, lustful, horny, bite your nipples until they are cherry red, make you squirt sex.
Let me tell you what I want, and let me hold you in my arms as you tell me what you want and what you feel. I don’t want to lose you and I want more. I want to see you more. I will listen to you when you talk. I will return your phone calls and make you a priority. I will learn how you take your frappuccinos. I will talk to you and tell you everything you have ever longed to hear from a lover and they will be genuine. and enduring.
And when you hear those words as they come out of my lips, and off my tongue. you will want to taste my lips. And then you would realize there is a heat between your legs and thighs, and you will ask me to take you and we will make love to each other.
You have looked at me before with desire in your eyes and held back. I’m asking you to let go with me. I will never take you for Granite. I will worship you. I will be gentle and slow and you will laugh. I’ll let the tension build in a way you’ve probably never felt before because I will care about you, not me. I will brush the hair out of your eyes and you will think of every romantic notion you have ever thought about because you have wanted that connection all along. I will give you something you always wanted and you will realize that it feels the way you had always imagined it would and it will be real.
I know that you’re strong, but let me see you soft! Let me see that you’re a woman. Let me see the beautiful creature that I know you are. Let me touch you, and feel your soft skin, your soft hair. Let me touch your soft belly and taste your soft lips. Maybe you will blush, maybe you will be nervous, but let me kiss you and you’ll forget all the things that bother you, and embrace what you already long o be embraced by.
If you do, this is when you will feel and know, unconditional love. My hands are powerful but let show you that they are also gentle, my tongue and fingers can be soft and pushy. Let’s kiss and make it an epic kiss. The kind that starts painfully slow where the lust and the desire of those kisses mask the gentle searching of my hands as they gently explore you, caress you, undress you. The sound of our hearts pounding like a cannon on repeat, and the taste will be wet, and salty and sweet as you surrender not only to the moment but to me, your lover.
And I will breathe your name into your mouth and you will inhale my want and I will talk dirty to you and I will tell you what a fucking beautiful woman you are and how bad I want to taste your pussy and your ass.
So be my lover. Let me fuck you. Let me make you come over and over again, let me make you squirt. Make love to the man who has always loved you. Tell me that you’ll be my lover..