The last couple of weeks have been wonderful. I have seen Catnip more in the past two weeks than ever before. It’s been great. So why am I so blue? Last night I drove myself crazy with what if’s and what does that mean. Well I will explain tomorrow. It all started with a comment and a couple of emails back and forth and now I’m going crazy. Tomorrow I will put it all up here. Sep 23 2010
I would like to hear from you and I would like to know what you think.
Clearly you know that Im in love with you, but why do you continure to see me?
I know that we are both married and everything else about you and I.
But I want more from you at least from your heart. Am I just a fool?
I’m never going to stop loving you. I’m never going to see you as just a friend. My heart breaks every time I see you and I know that I might seem somehow weak to you. But I’m not. I’m deeply in love with you, and if you care for me only as a simple friend. Please tell me. Or if you suffer in any measure I need to know. Do you think of me or want to be near me. I need to know because not knowing is killing me slowly.
I need to know this: Why did you hold my hand this summer? You can’t deny that it was passionate and that your eyes looked at me with a tender longing. I know I didn’t pursue you, but I also know the power was there.
Please don’t ask me to be your friend. I can’t do it.