Our relationship is a contradiction to everything I have always even considered, but there is no denying its power and the strength of my convictions towards you. When you married, I honestly hoped you would be happy for the rest of your life. Even than though I was sorrowful for losing you, even as a friend for a time, I was resolute in my desire for your happiness and I prayed for you then as I do now, that you would be happy.
But you were not happy. I don’t know or understand what you think about me, but I know you are happy when you are with me, as I a when I am with you. And it at least seems to me that the thing that causes you stress around me is that you still can not come to terms with who we are to each other even when it is a plain as it is that were are important to each other and that we love each other. That is a plain and simple truth. I wish that you would embrace it, and put your arms around my shoulders and close your eyes and I would kiss you and from that moment on you will never question my embrace. You would trust it, and me.
We are what we are to each other and I will wait forever as your friend if that is what you need. But the day will inevitably come when you and I will embrace what we have.
Please don’t leave me again little Girl. You are to precious to me to lose again and now,that you have admitted as much to me there is no reason yo ever let that go. In five months and three weeks I will have a meltdown again as I deal with the loneliness of waiting for you to catch up with me, but I will never leave you. I love you far too much, and I will always return quickly. Oh How I love you!